I can't sleep. The day of Ketamine infusion has finally arived,. I will have three days of infusions, each lasting four hours. I am afraid of so many things, afraid of memories coming up during the infusion, afraid of the disorientation I know is coming.

I should be feeling hopeful. I'm doing something to fight back at the RSDS/CRPS beast, but in reality, I just feel nervous. This will not be an easy process.