This is a hard one. I think for me, the most challenging part of the holidays is when I don't feel peaceful, and am having a lot of pain. My health is always impacted this time of year. I can't go shopping for long periods, and because of where I live and my multiple issues, transportation is difficult. It usually takes several trips to get things for people, or if I get my act together, I can sometimes buy things online.
It's hard to take care of myself right now and not feel guilty about it. As a kid, guilt was never part of Christmas, but as an adult, it definitely is. I honestly worry that I don't give enough to others, both materially and emotionally.
On the other hand, there are a lot of changes in my life recently and I am experiencing life more fully. There are tons of blessings, like new hobbies, new and closer friendship relationships and a feeling of grattitude for life. Even when I eat, I experience flavors more fully. So in many ways, I actually enjoy the season more, if not for the guilt factor.