It is the little accomplishments and things that I do right that I need to focus on. I got a "good point" in lab today. I obviously got over here safely and accepted help appropriately. Thursday, I proved I can do some things that I didn't think I was strong enough to do. I proved that I can walk backward on a treadmill to 1improve dorsiflexion. I need to learn to focus on the good things I do, not the mistakes. I know this, but can't figure out why this has become harder since I gotrsd/crps. Today, since the pain started out a little less, it's easier to focus on the good parts of who I am. But severe pain changes my self image, both internal and external. Knowing this is a first step, and I can monitor it.
Maybe some of the answer is in what I do with Julio. I click and reinforce good behavior. He accepts praise with a wag of his tail. IF I accept praise, I tend to minimize whatever it is that caused the praise. I'm more likely to say "yeah, but did you see so and so? They did x way better than I did and under more stressful circumstances." I need to start positively reinforcing myself.
Who knew coffee could inspire deep thoughts? The real question is, will any of this make sense to me or anyone else in a few hours?