I still don't know why I'm freaking out over this surgery. I was doing so well at not being as afraid, but all has broken loose this week. I know some of it is beginning of the semester jitters. And I know that's normal. But it's still not fun.
I talked with a nurse from the hospital today so she could give me pre-operative instructions and I could give her medical information. I can have clear liquids up until 7:30 on Thursday morning. But I guess they're going to use a smaller amount of anesthetic, which sounds like sedation. I'm not looking forward to this at all. I prefer being awake, although maybe it's wise not to be... who knows.
My body is telling me what it thinks of being put under this stress already. I just really do not want sedation... It creaps me out, and I haven't found a way to accept needing it. At the moment, I'm not at all sure why I'm opposed to it, or rather, don't want to explore the reasons for the fear of having it on this public of a blog.
In more exciting news, I have spearmint chapstick! And cinamon Teddy Grahams!