Okay, so I've been awake off and on since midnight and solidly since two, but it's the closest I can come to a creative subject.
Pain increases are always interesting, but today I managed it by basically just getting through the day. I know, novel idea. Then, I was able to talk to my theology professor about the issues I'm having and I think things will be manageable. Ideally, I would have been able to find what I needed, but since I couldn't, at least I spoke up. We're going to figure something out.
To explain why I was so frustrated, the challenge is that the professor wants specific resources to be used. And it's not like an assignment that says "Read passage A and find out what the word X really means." It's "Find B Commentary, read D entry, then compare and contrast it with F in the G dictionary." I get why that is important to understand. I think the idea is to get the student to understand that there are differences. But when you can't find those exact dictionaries, it's incredibly frustrating. I'm good at piecing stuff together, but I can't answer these types of questions. I have a feeling that things will work out fine, though.
Why, you ask am I writing this at 4 in the morning? Well, it all started with my bottle of Amitriptyline falling off the top of my refridgorator, and the fact that I can't find it. I suspect it fell behind the fridge, so I used the folding cane I keep around in case I need to go somewhere without Julio to look, but I can't tell. So, the nerve pain didn't get relieved the way the drug usually does it, and the sleep schedule is not working out so well.
I'm waiting to call my Mommy dearest to ask her for some help with a few shopping chores, so maybe she will see it? I hope so, because I don't really think withdrawl will be fun!
Since I'm not sleeping, I'm noticing the differences in sounds throughout the night. There is hardly any traffic noise, and it's a rather strange realization. I'm not sure how to explain it, but it's just something to be aware of.
I guess it gives me time to do some reading and stuff. I am going to take lemons and make lemonade somehow. I really should have purchased that caffinated soap I saw a few weeks ago.