I realize this entry is disjointed, but as I have a lot to think about, I'm not sure how to put it down on paper eloquently. I'll say this though: the "well maybe it'll get better" approach I tend to take when the pai n is really really bad doesn't work, and I'll avoid it in the future, especially after being told today that that's a bad thing to do with RSD. After seeing how long it's taking me to recover from last week's episode, I'm sure I don't need that ever again.
Please don't worry about me. Things will be okay once I have more sleep. I have an awesome doctor and it wasn't a bad appointment, I just need to do some thinking.