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My father's house

I'm not sure of the exact title, but the song "My Father's House" came on the radio. I want to say it's by Audio Adrenaline or someone like that, but I'm probably wrong. It reminded me of when we used to go to Umys and Jumys. We'd dance, scream and sing as loud as we could. I didn't mind if someone grabbed me to show me the actions. Occasionally, I'd join the conga line. Then, after we'd sung and worshipped, we'd hear a talk, and head off for pizza, fun and later still, reflection. And there was so much trust built, and I felt a part of something. And there weren't any dividing lines.

I miss those days. I can't go back, but I miss them dearly. I know I'm where God wants me, but it's hard not being to call up my youth pastor and ask the tough questions. It's hard knowing that most of the time, I'm on my own to process those things.

And yet, there are good things in that. I am learning to trust God, not just people. I don't tie what I believe to a person or place. But I often wonder, should I have found a community of faith here?

This sounds so sad, and I don't mean it to be. Just reflections, and I am happy here. I've grown in my faith, been opened to new experiences, been challenged, been strengthened. I just miss the connections sometimes.



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Feb. 12th, 2006 01:51 am (UTC)
finding new advisers, etc.
I can remember feeling those feelings... [hugs] A community of faith is vital wherever you are. Being in college is difficult sometimes because it's so temporary... At the same time, you'll also find that you learn to locate advisers in unusual places... That's part of adulthood, and there's nothing wrong with it... It's just very different from what you've been used to. [hugs]
Feb. 12th, 2006 01:57 am (UTC)
Re: finding new advisers, etc.
Thanks, it's nice to know that these feelings are normal. I'm hoping to find some resources for conection.
Hugs, and thanks!
Feb. 12th, 2006 04:46 am (UTC)
I remember dancing around and singing that song at UMYS and JUMYs!!!!
Feb. 12th, 2006 01:16 pm (UTC)
Those were awesome times! And do you remember "Bar hopping with Jesus"?
For anyone else who sees this, don't get mad, it's better than it sounds.
Feb. 13th, 2006 12:14 am (UTC)
Oh Yah I remember...lol...that was everything was with Jesus, as it should be.....Margret was so fun to hang out with.
Feb. 13th, 2006 12:33 am (UTC)
Those times were the things that made me smile so hard. Were you there when the "but officer I can't see the spedometer" thing was formed? I can't remember if you were for sure in the car.
Feb. 12th, 2006 05:55 am (UTC)
Finding a "community of faith" as you call it, especially in a college situation which can be incredibly transitory, is hard. But it is very helpful to get plugged in, and find somewhere ou can grow with others and have support. I have an amazing talk on this and would be glad to share if you want to hear it.
S/n: IVIagical Music
Email: pollarbn@jmu.edu

K bye!

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