Nickie Coby (puppybraille) wrote,
Nickie Coby

He Leads Me: Reflections on Trust and Faith

Today in Sunday school we started reading the book "Traveling Light". It's by Max Lucado and is based on the 23rd Psalm. One of the things I stumbled upon as a thought is how hard, but important it is, to trust. I don't exactly remember what was said, but there were some observations that touched me and are now prompting me to write this down.
one of the questions was which part of the Psalm speaks to us the most. That was hard to do, but I picked one: "He leads me beside the still waters", specifically the "He leads me". As a guide dog handler and person who is blind, I do a lot of following and being lead. One of the most important aspects of a guide dog team is the trust. If I don't trust Julio, both of us are off rhythm. He can't lead me as well because I'm not letting him truly lead me. For example, he can try to lead me around something harmful (like a pole that could give me a goose egg), but if I'm second-guessing him, he can't always get me around that pole. In that case, it's not his fault that I'm not listening and if I get hurt. It's the same way with faith. If I don't trust God, or follow what He wants for my life, things will happen that He doesn't want to happen. He can warn me, but I have to trust Him.
It's the same way with bad things that happen. My foot pain and RSD is not necessarily something that my not listening to Him or not trusting Him caused, but when I try to prove that I can handle it on my own, or am unwilling to trust Him with the pain, anger, sadness and fear, things get off rhythm. I cause myself unnecessary pain.
When I trust Julio, and we're on, he can get me through even the worst and most crouded situation like a shopping mall full of people. And you know what? When I'm focussing on him and fololowing him, I don't get frustrated by the obstacles as much. It's a wonderful feeling. I lean my head back a bit, straighten my shoulders, swing my arm and smile. It's a great way to walk.
If I trust God, He won't always remove me from the painful or difficult situation, but He will guide me. Focussing on Him, I can put the hard stuff into perspective.
It's important, then, to know the character of my guide. I have to believe Julio's in the mood to guide well and that he wants to work and focus on the job before I can trust him. If I think he's distracted, it's hard to trust him and I need to take the initiateve in the relationship and make him focus. But with God, I have to learn to trust Him. I have to believe that he loves me and always wants what's best for me. Knowing God's character and internalizing that is something I am still working on to be honest.
Just wanted to write this down for future reference. I hope I can learn to trust better.
Tags: guide dogs, hope, my writing

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