The hard part of today was trying to study some maps. They were really good tactile graphics, but I was still way overloaded! I'll need some help from Diane tomorrow.
Things are getting a little bit better as far as sadness about Dakota. It hurts, it will always hurt, but I think about how much it hurts less now. But when I think to myself "I'll just go play with the doggy." It's still sad. But my biggest thing right now is Tuesday. The long awaited Pain Clinic appointment is finally here! I'm praying for the doctor now. I hope God will help us find the answer.
In my flesh, I want to scream "Why won't you just make me better?!!" But I know that I have gained much from this. I am learning more about being a better disciple everyday, and I should never get to the point where I think I should be abouve trial and tribulation! It can and does happen, and it's how we choose to respond to it that counts. Right now, I'm clinging to the promise that God will give us what we want if we pray according to His will. And I hope that finding out what is wrong with me is in His will, but if it is not, I pray He will give me the strength to accept that!! And I know that someday it will all make sense.
For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I will know fully, even as I was also fully known.
1 Corinthians 13:12 World English Bible
11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope in your latter end.