So there are 2 things I'm struggling with here:
1. What role do I believe God takes in this?
2. And how can I be thankful for my thorns?
In TRW we read a chapter out of the book "When Bad Things Happen To Good People". In that, I saw a perspective that I often forget. God could prevent this, yes, but He often doesn't. Even though I don't understand it, I don't like it, God has chosen to let me go through it. It reminds me a lot of Job in a way, although I think Job had it worse since he lost everything. I don't know why God does what He does. I don't know what the ultimate plan is. But I do know that even when these bad things happen, I can still trust in a Good God. That is ultimately what matters.
The being thankful for my thorns is hard too. I've come to some conclusions about that too. Those tend to be conclusions I think about and ultimately forget when the next crisis comes. I'm trying to do better about that. I've found that I can't child necessarily find the ability to be thankful for my difficulties right when they are happening. That is hard for me to do. But if I look hard enough I usually see some way in which God is moving in the difficulty. Maybe it's the kind words or listEning ear ow get from a friend or doctor. Maybe it's like a few months ago when I was so angry about my torn tendon and people from campus ministry came and prayed over dorm rooms and blessed them just As I came to a spiritual truth and admitted my anger over the whole situation. I've even seen it in the little breaks I get to take, going shopping; having coffee on a relaxing Sunday morning; taking a bath with bath fizz and so many other little things like these, all of this helps me leave some tension behind and get a better perspective. Sometimes, too, it's a lesson I learn from the situation whether it be about myself, about others or about God. Whatever little or big things I see that are good in the situation, I find it much easier to say "thank You," for these types of things than the actual situation. Sometimes I do come to the point where I can say "thank You" for the bad stuff too, but that takes time.
Anyway, this is just my perspective on Thanksgiving and how I came to deal with some of what I was worrying about on Monday. I'm praying you have a blessed Thanksgiving and that you see the blessings no matter what situation you find yourself in.