September 20th, 2006

Cut cuddle and be Cute

Thoughts on shots

Things I love about having a sympathetic block:

  • Less pain; I can think much more clearly after a block because my thoughts are not on how much pain I'm in, or what pain management mechanism I should use.

  • I sleep better after these, even though I need an ice pack for the injection site.
  • Although shots aren't fun, I can at least get feedback on how I'm doing managing my RSD (it's usually not what I want to hear, but at least I know).
  • Food tastes better after an injection because I can actually fully enjoy it. I don't need to make myself eat for a while.
  • Are we noticing a pattern here? I try not to let pain rule my life, but there is only so much I can take when it hurts.

People wonder how I can willingly go through these things. None of them have RSD. I'd love to avoid needles, but it makes a difference. While it's somewhat invasive, I prefer it to surgery any day!

Yesterday held a lot of joking, even though my doctor didn't like what he saw and I didn't like the two options he presented. It's something I'm impressed with about the pain center; they really enjoy their jobs and even when you don't like what they tell you, you know they care. I have to share one humorous conversation which really made the procedure easy to tolerate:
The doctor asked the nurse working with him to move the screen that displays the realtime x-ray so he could see it better (think about it, wouldn't you prefer that they use x-ray when they stick a needle in your back?) The nurse made a comment that the doctor was "getting old". When I'm in pain, I tend to joke. So I told the doc "I don't care if you can see perfectly, or if you need glasses, I just want to know that your vision is better than mine!"

He took that very well and we all had a good laugh. It's surprising, really, how much laughter makes the minor discomfort of the block easier to tolerate. So does local anesthetic, but we won't go there (smile).

And with that, friends, I'm out of here. One of my friends may be at the school coffee shop, and I love talking to her, so I want to see her if I can.


Don't hug too low on my back though okay?

Cut cuddle and be Cute

A few links

I'm waiting to go to class and needed a distraction, not to mention that I needed to post these before I forget. Mostly, this post has links to pain-related stuff and very much what I needed to read. Here you go!

Chronic Pain Lifestyle is a very cool blog, that makes me think a lot. First, there's the post about
pain over time.
And another one about how God works through our animals in
Dog is my co-pilot.

It probably wouldn't be a link post if I didn't link to ChronicBabe. If you read the friends-only post a few days ago, you'll know why it matters that it was so timely. Even though I tried not to have my RSD flare, I still had a flare-up. Here's a post on
When we slip

That's all I'm going to post for now, but I'm sure I'll have more soon.

Cut cuddle and be Cute

Can I become an anarchist and get it over with?

For social work, we had to write about our political perspectives. No, I won't post my essay here, mainly because I don't know if I want to go there yet. Am I the only one who has no idea what they think. One minute I think one way, the next minute I'm not sure. I thought life got easier when you get out of high school? So far, all I know is that I usually have more questions than answers. I don't think that's bad, mind you, but why do I always have to have an answer? Why can't I write in bold red letters I don't know!

I like talking about issues, but I can't say that I am liberal, conservative, radical, moderate or reactionary. I don't like labels, so why would I willingly slap one on myself? Three pages is not enough for me to figure out how to explain my opinions on various issues.

On the bright side, I got the paper done. I just didn't expect to feel as frustrated trying to complete it. It only took me a few hours, but it was still frustrating and other than the above frustrations, I can't figure out why. But it's done! And the next assignment for that class involves using the internet. This is a very good thing right?

Since it basically involves finding a site about some aspect of social work, maybe I'll find one and post it here as well. It can't hurt, right?

Today has been so nice, not dealing with the awfulness of high pain levels. I don't even need the cane just to get to the bathroom anymore. I still take it when I go to class or coffee, but it's nice to be able to walk more comfortably. Now if I can only come up with some concrete suggestions for when I go back to the pain clinic (just for a consultation), in a week and a half.

I'm just unwinding, so don't feel like you have to mind the crazy entry.