February 14th, 2006

Cut cuddle and be Cute

What fun it is to wake up at 5 in the morning

Apparently, the link I posted earlier to my blogroll isn't working. So, being the lazy, tired girl that I am, I decided to
Let's post this again

I am going to search for Hershey's Kisses or some other kind of chocolate at the drugstore today, well maybe. I'm not sure how successful I will be in searching, given that I doubt very seriously that they have employees who can help me look for stuff. We'll see though. Maybe I'll get lucky and find the candy aisle. Right now, I need to read for theo, then I need to get over to the CDC for breakfast. Actually, I just thought of a better plan. I'll use the insane amount of meal points I have and just buy sweet stuff at the school market place. The students don't usually mind helping as long as you ask nicely, and then I can use up more of these meal points.

I guess if I actually ate vegetables, I'd use up more of my meal points on the salad bar.

Alright, time for me to go do something... Not sure what though. More than six hours of sleep would've been nice, but I'll make the best of it!

Hugs!
Nickie
Cut cuddle and be Cute

Interesting Meme

Thanks to a friend, my attention has been drawn to the following thingy. It's a little tricky, because you don't check boxes or click links. Just click on the words, JAWS says they're clickable if that helps.
http://kevan.org/johari?name=puppybraille


In other news: If I'd known that Valentine's Day could be so cool here, I wouldn't have spent so much energy dreading it.

Hugs!
Nickie
Cut cuddle and be Cute

More on the Julio dog

On bad pain days, I tend to wear pollar fliece pants if I can. I thought that Julio just liked the pants, because he will tickle me when I'm feeling bad and wearing those pants. Well, apparently, it's not those pants. I was wearing cords and a t-shirt, and he was tickling me. He's been doing that ever since Sunday. That's when "the bovine feces hit the wind propelling apparatus" as Dad says and as far as pain is concerned. Things just aren't getting better, and I've tried to be relatively good, not doing more walking than I need to, but this week is not good for not walking. I have to. I have a mobility lesson in a little over 20 minutes, which I have to get because if I don't, I'll have a repeat of yesterday, but how am I going to walk that much? And then sit through a 3 hour class tonight?

The pain clinic just called, one of the nurses took down my symptoms and is going to talk to the doctor who made the original diagnosis back in Novemeber. She said I almost never call, and that Mom was right for making me (I always expect them to think I'm a wuss and don't want to speak out, especially since I know of people who have RSD in more places and more advanced than I do). Maybe they can help me. I'm still embarrassed that I had to call, but she was nice about it. I'm going to ask for prayers that they will find something to do that won't make me stupid for school, and that will help. Also, that I can make it through the next several hours. Sleeping tonight would be good, but I think that's probably asking too much.

Thanks to everyone who's checked up on me. I do really appreciate it.

Hugs!
Nickie
  • Current Mood
    embarrassed and sore
Cut cuddle and be Cute

Doctor's appointment tomorrow

Apparently, the doctor thought I should be seen tomorrow because of the severity in my pain and symptoms. So I have an appointment at 2, which translates to me having a tight connection or leaving class a bit early. This is not good, but the pain clinic doesn't have a ton of openings. I'm just going to have to pray that I don't miss any more classes because we're not supposed to miss more than three.

I had a good conversation with my prayer team leader about a lot of things. It was encouraging. Sometimes I feel like college, and especially this foot thing, is a vacuum sucking up all of my energy and emotions. It takes me a while before I trust. Thankfully, I've got a lot of support, including all of you who took the time to read these words. I don't know what I'd do without you!

I'm going to make up a sheet to take to the doctor and explain the symptoms I'm having. That should make the appointment more productive. I really don't want to come away from this feeling like I didn't have my concerns heard. But I also don't want to come off as pushy or overbearing. This is an unanswerable question, but why do I tend to feel guilty when I'm taking what could probably be considered a healthy assertive step?

With that, I'm of to finish a sandwich and head for theo.

Hugs!
Nickie
  • Current Mood
    exhausted
Cut cuddle and be Cute

Theological thoughts

I figured I'd try to write on the theology stuff we discussed in class today and generally explain that I did survive. This is, in my estimation, a positive thing.

We had to take a quiz which I took orally. It was the professor's idea, since the O'Neill center is closed after 5 and I would have to take the quiz at a different time. She figured it would save me some time, but also said that if I'd rather have it read in the O'Neill Center, that would be fine. I finished before two of the students, so I don't have a problem taking it orally. I did tell her that if I was ever holding the class up, she should tell me and we could arrange for other quizes to be taken at a different time in the O'Neill Center. That way, I wouldn't hold up the class.

Today's class was all about crises, what forms they take and how they are resolved. Basically, we talked about the form of a right of passage (which is similar to a crisis). First, there's the separation from something you no longer need. This can be sad, but also can be joyful or scary. Then, there is the liminality which is the period where you can't go back, but you're not sure how you'll go forward. Finally, there is the resolution where you are okay/comfortable with where you are in life. This lead me to think a lot about my own life, and what crises I've had, both good or bad. Going off to college has been a tough transition, and there are still things I wish I could change. I feel like I'm too dependent on family, but don't really know how I can change that. I know that part of this is my inability to walk for long distances. For instance, I would not have needed Mom's assistance with the medicine today if I could have safely handled the walk to the bus stop without increasing my pain levels even further. Anyway... I digress.

Then we watched this movie I think the title was something like Man, Woman, Child, and it was pretty good. I just like that class and that professor a lot. I finally figured out why I'm confused when I go out of Whitby with my newfound friend/partner in class. For some reason, I didn't remember that I needed to make a right turn. I can be such a dits sometimes, but that's okay, it gives me something to write about in LJ :p.

So now the trick is getting to sleep and staying that way. I'm not going to take bets on if that will actually happen.

Hugs!

Nickie
  • Current Mood
    ditzy