December 1st, 2005

Cut cuddle and be Cute

I didn't think SD stood for sleep deferred.

I fell asleep doing homework last night. My BN's top flapp was open, and I lost my SD card somewhere in my bed or near it. Have you seen how little those cases are for those things? I'm really tired! I woke up because I forgot to take my medicine since I fell asleep doing said homework. Now, though the meds are taking effect, but the stupid SD card is keeping me awake. I need a pair of eyes other than the darling clown puppy I have. I discovered he sleeps on his back in his little bed. How cute! I just think that's adorable!
Hugs!
Nickie
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Cut cuddle and be Cute

This is definitely fortunate!

I found the card. It was no big deal. I'm very happy about this. I don't know what to do about my meds though. My injection isn't until 11 this morning. So I can't eat or anything. I think I'm going back to sleep soon.
Hugs!
Nickie
Cut cuddle and be Cute

That's so not what I wanted to hear...

Yeah, so if the foot swelling and junk doesn't go down, I'm going to have a lumbar sympathetic block. Yes, I survived one of these before, no I do not want another one, no, I don't want to think about this right now and no, I cannot use ice to make the swelling go down.
In better news, I think this block was successful. Just an ankle block, but maybe I'll get some sleep.
Hugs!
Nickie
Cut cuddle and be Cute

Random stuff...

Naps are great, especially when they are naps minus the sensitivity issues that plague my sleep even when I use lidoderm. I took one and it was absolutely amazing. I still don't really want to think about the shot in the back I'll have to have, but I feel much better about it after getting more sleep. In other news, the water once again runs warm here in the dorm. This is very very nice. Hot water is a convenience I rarely think about except maybe after ASP trips, but I can definitely tell you, it's something I hope I stop taking for granted. I can't even imagine what it would be like not to afford hot water in the winter. I wonder if that's something that's a required service? I'm guessing no, and I'm guessing more people than I'd like to think about go without it on a daily basis.
A few of us had pizza for dinner. That was nummilicious. Now, the local anesthetic is starting to wear off, but hopefully I will still be able to get more sleep. We have a manditory floor meeting tonight. Ugh.
Hugs!
Nickie
Cut cuddle and be Cute

Dizziness

I'm really dizzy. I'm not sure why or what to do about it. If it's this bad tomorrow, I'm going to have to figure out why. I'm hoping sleep will help.
The floor meeting wasn't bad, and the philosophy discussion wasn't bad either. Over all, good day!
I'm feeling much more calm. No, I don't want to have the sympathetic block, but hey, maybe it will help. If it'll help me, it's worth the procedure. It's just so weird and it made me feel very exposed... I know that it's okay, but it's just awkward for me. Hopefully, I can keep my humor... I'll just ask them not to show me the needle. I'm going to be fine. I need to think of it like a soldier, I'm fighting the RSD, all means are necissary. I also need to remember I've survived it once before. And I need to trust. I trust the doctor, after two years of pain, and spending much of that time receiving injections from this doctor, I know he does great work. I also know that he is on the patient's side and doesn't do procedures that are unnecissary. I also need to trust God and know that He'll get me through it. I find that's much harder. Man, I feel awful for admitting that. But it's true, and it's one of the things I hate about myself. I really want to trust this time. I'm so tired of falling into the same old "Oh, my gosh, I'm gonna die I'm so scared", patterns. I feel like I'm growing in this area, but I just don't know... Still, I'm going to try.
I just realized that it's been a week since I full blown cried. That's a record for the past month or so. Must have been the Neurontin. That's what I thought, but it was validating to see this.
I'm so excited for tomorrow's dance. I'm going to have fun. A friend is coming, and I think it will kick butt. Then, the weekend comes and it's time to study. Finals is coming up fast. How did I manage to forget how hellish the last parts of quarters and semesters are?
Hugs!
Nickie
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