November 22nd, 2005

Cut cuddle and be Cute

Good? morning

I did not plan to wake up this early! There was absolutely no way I wanted to get up early. My psychology lab was canceled for this week and I was hoping to relax a bit before the doctor's appointment. But no, I had to have stabbing pains in my foot and ankle. They're almost shooting I think.
I sometimes find it difficult to describe pains. I'm not sure why, but I do. Hopefully this I can be helpful enough to make decisions and diagnoses.
Okay, I'm out. I'm not sure what I'm going to do now. Maybe now that I've written I can get comfortable?
Cut cuddle and be Cute

Kick butt quote

Found this on a friend's facebook profile:

I've had questions, without answers
I've known sorrow, I have known pain
but there's one thing, that I'll cling to
You are faithful, Jesus You're true
When hope is lost, I'll call You saviour
When pain surrounds, I'll call You healer
When silence falls, You'll be the song within my heart

Cut cuddle and be Cute

Doctor's Appointment

First, let me say that I appologize for not telling anyone specifically what happened if I said I'd call you or let you know.
I have RSD. It's official. I did not cry which was very very very good. That would have been the third time I cried in front of this particular doctor. Both times previously were when he told me I had to have a lumbar sympathetic block.
I created a sheet which listed my symptoms, medications I'm on, medications I'm allergic to and Neurontin stuff and why I want off. That really helped and he liked that I had it. I was so concerned that it would appear too assertive. It's really aut of character for me to actually do that. But everyone involved seemed to appreciate it. I'm so glad I did it. This doctor is excellent. He really takes the time to listen to you not just about your symptoms but about life in general. I haven't laughed so hard in a while. Maybe that will bring my blood pressure down... I am trying to change my response to stress, but it's not happening as quickly as I'd like. Wait, that right there is the type A thing again.
Anyway, he really did not like what he saw with the foot, he called it purple elephant foot. There was at least a 2 degree difference (in celcius), and the left foot was the much colder of the two. So we're going to continue injections, I'm going back on the Celebrex, starting something called Lyrica and getting off of the Neurontin. He said he didn't see any options as far as surgery. It's a necessity most likely, but he doesn't make that decision. But he will tell the poediatrist I work with to go ahead and do surgery if I need it. He said something interesting though. He said that doing a nerve block is the best choice if I have surgery. This is good, maybe I can stay awake.
I don't need to worry about using Lidoderm every night if I need it. It's actually a good thing.
Like I said, this doctor is excellent and cares about his patients. I am confident that he will help me get through this.
He said that attitude will help a lot. I told him I tend to get mad at things that sand in my way. He said that's good. So now, I'm trying to fight the urge to feel melancholy. I am trying to be positive about htis and trust God. He is the ultimate one that can get me through this.
I'm definitely tired and I want it to be 7 so I can put on a patch. The pain is higher this evening.
I'll probably go to dinner some time soon. I feel like being alone may be a bad choice but I really want to sleep.
All in all, not what I wanted to hear. But I at least heard it in a positive way.
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