September 27th, 2005

Cut cuddle and be Cute

I can't think of a subject!

So the heart things seem to be slightly calmer today. I suspect it's all nervousness not the medication. I got all my papers done and all that fun stuff. This is great accept that I don't have anything to distract me until I get picked up for the doctor's appointment.
A coupple people have asked how/when I re-injured myself, and I'm guessing others are wondering. In July, I was getting off of the bus when I missed the curb. I twisted my ankle, but now don't recall which way. If the torn theory from the MRI is correct, I twisted my foot outward best as I can tell. It's hard not to kick myself (no punn intended), because I was actually getting better before the fall. But that's life I guess.
In psychology lab this morning we had to do some visual observations. I need to send an email to one of the lists I'm on and get a few suggestions. Thank good ness for the ONiel Center!
Hugs!
Nickie
Cut cuddle and be Cute

Not what I wanted to hear.

She feels the MRI was correct. Not even a question. I'm going to try physical therapy, but that can't repair the tendon. So if that doesn't make me feel better, I'll have to have surgery. To add to the "joyful news," she says my RSD did indeed flare. I wonder if it's the purple color of my foot that clued her in? I kind of knew this is what was coming, but there was a small part of me that didn't believe it, a small part of me that believed there could be some other explanation. I just want to go curl up somewhere. I don't want to interact, although I probably should. Yes, there are good things about this, like the fact that we know what we're dealing with and can do something about it, but I can't see that right now.
I can't put into words what I feel. I know a positive attitude is important, but I'm not there yet.
Hugs!
Nickie
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