The thing taht was scary was I backed myself into an emotional corner thinking about the surgery. It would help if I knew what would happen if hey do this. Knowing that I might have surgery isn't helping. It's hard to prepare for something if it only might happen. Does that make sense?
I made myself anxious. I was physically shaking. I need to figure out how to beat these thoughts. I feel fine now. I'd love to sleep for about 24 hours, but I have class today, so it's not possible.