September 1st, 2003

Cut cuddle and be Cute


Well, I'm sitting here basically because I woke up at 5:30 A.M. again! Arg! Granted I'll have to get up then anyway, but still, what a way to start the last day of summer. My headache is gone, for which I am grateful! It wasn't as bad as it could have been, but light hurt, sound hurt, and eating wasn't fun but I managed. My parents decided to have crab cakes. While those can be good, not with a headache! I think it was a tension headache combined with my need to eat regularly, but who knows? I did feel weird even at church, and I wonder if chiropractic kept it from getting to where it was last year where I'd lay on the floor in pain. If it did, I'm grateful!
Dakota still hasn't returned, but I'm still hoping for the best there. I've prayed that if he doesn't come back, God will keep him safe. In a sad and scary way, this may be God's way of getting the house ready for me to have a guide dog. If so, I pray that it will work out for me to get a guide dog next summer.
Today I need to get my bag ready for school tomorrow and decide what to wear.
Other than that, nothing, there's a minor chance of getting to go to the fair which would be nice, but I'm not gonna get my hopes up!



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Cut cuddle and be Cute

No fair isn't that punny?

Okay, I couldn't resist the dark pun. But I didn't get to go to the fair. After a very abrupt sign off from my conversation with enchanterglen when I realized it was almost 11 A.M. and I was still in my pajamas and needed to be ready to get out the door, we went to my sister Helena's dorm. I thought I was going to get to go to the fair, but after going to Chipotle (pernounced "chip olt lay") my foot was really sore. I didn't think going to the fair was smart. I needed some earrings and one more outfit, so we went back to the mall. It was fun, but I'm very sore. I had an awesome worship experience in the truck on the way home. They were playing praise songs and I just got into an attitude of praise. It was cool to see how God works. I praised Him and he calmed my fears. Dakota still hasn't returned, but I'm still praying through it all. Praise God that I'm not alone.

Hugs to all!

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Cut cuddle and be Cute

Not again!

Dakota's dead. They found him about a half mile away from our house. He got hit by a car. I'm really sad, mad and down right upset. I don't know what to do. I wish I could scream. I'm trying to figure out how I'll handle it. I don't think I can handle it anymore. More grief, more sadness. I cried again. I hat that feeling. I don't like being shaky, and hardly able to talk.
I had to tell my sister. That sucked. I'm sorry, but I think I'm going to probably be a bit out of character and that includes some swear words.
I'm so stressed about all of this. Last year I was so depressed, I didn't handle it well, but I'm going to try to handle it better. Journaling should help. I guess this means that the guide dog is definitely a possibility, and the dog won't have to acclimate to Dakota, still it's a hard price to pay.
I'm worried about school. I need people who understand what's going on, and I don't know if I'll see my friends at all. But right now, I can't think about tomorrow. I have to think about today.
And today I need to remember the dog.
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I'm starting to cry again. I'd better go.


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    My Mom talking to a friend about this whole thing
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