I'm extremely unsure of how to put thoughts down on paper right now. I don't know why. I really really want my own bed. I think i mentioned that college has felt kind of like camp for the past week? Well this must be my body saying "What the... I thought we'd be going home by now." I really really want to be going home. Actually, what I want is to be going back in time, back to last year when all I had to worry about was having a guide dog and figuring out how to use him... I can't believe I just wrote that! Okay, so maybe in some ways I don't want to go bad. But are there ever days when you just feel like you're tired of all of the adversity of life and you really have to remind yourself that God is actually in control and can take all of your emotions? I have a hard time sometimes, okay, lots of times admitting to him what he already knows. I don't understand that.
I just want to shine here, and I'm not doing that yet. I need to remind myself that God does have a plan in all of this. I also need to remind myself that he's here and I'm beautiful in his sight even on the bad days.
He'll be with me tomorrow too, I just need to remember that. For some reason, that's hard.
Hugs!
Nickie