I have to wonder if I have a shell shocked look on my face right now.
I just need a break, I need to take care of myself, sleep well, use a litaderm patch to get the pai n down and take deep breaths. I've never used the relaxation techniques I know from various classes, but that might not be a bad idea now. And at least I have my journal. I have a hard time putting things into words and talking about them one on one, but I can write and that seems to help. Taking a day off may help too. I'm not doing anything tonight accept for relaxing.
I know with certainty that this is the place I need to be in life now. It's very uncomfortable, but it means I'm growing. I have a lot of support systems. I'm not going to let myself fall through the cracks. I feel certain that this is where God wants me. So for now, I'll accept that it's hard. I'll keep trying to process this too.
I need to go eat, but I'm not sure I have the energy to walk back to the CDC. I do have fried rice left, so I can warm that up.
The good news is that things are starting to click and I'm really enjoying my classes. I'm off to go chill. Thanks everyone for the support.